"There were always in me, two women, at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weakness, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest..."
After a discussion about work related activities, another co-worker told me that she thought I was very confident, had it all together.... I audibly laughed. That is the absolute last thing I think of when I think of myself. But I think we are all like this....we often do not see things ourselves that others may see. As women, especially, I think we struggle with feelings of adequacy in multiple areas of life....as a wife, co-worker, friend, mother, daughter, sister, Christian....you name it.. So feeling confident is the last thing we think when we think of ourselves. I don't have much insightfullness to add, just the quote above and the one below...they speak more than my words can.