One Thing I know and Many Things I don't......
I do not know when our home study will be done....with this weather, our last visit, which is scheduled for Saturday, does not look good. I am prayful but nervous. And this is scary and frustrating because NOTHING else can move forward without it....our dossier, our grant applications, our potential referral....
I do not know when I will see the faces of my child(ren). I never thought I would ache to just see the mere face of the child I will parent. There were even times in the past when I was unsure if I would ever be a parent. Now, though, that it is an inevitability, I can't begin to tolerate the wait..... I mean, I am tolerating but it is so heart "aching"....
I do not know where the money will come from..... though after the miraculous ornament sale, I do know that the $$$ will come as it is supposed to.
I do not know where we will end up for my residency. We find out the third Thursday in March....I turn in my order in February and have to wait another month after that.... we will then move AGAIN in June where ever "that" is.... and have to have our home study amended.
Despite all of this "not knowing", I am trying to enjoyr, appreciate and love the ride.... Despite all fo this "not knowing", there is one thing I know without any doubt...... I know that my husband, JT, will be a fabulous father. I have always known this and never doubted it. Yet tonight he did something that was proof. Many of you may or may not know but Kentucky is getting ice and wet snow tonight. The roads were slick, mainly because here in the South, we don't handle winter weather well.... Basically, the entire state had school pre-emptively canceled today with the prediction of snow. Tonight, in the chilling temperatures and snow and ice, JT first came to my office and waited in the lobby for an hour while I saw patients so that he could drive me home (my car is not the best snow-mobile). After we got home, he insisted on sweeping our porch and the stairs leading the parking lot. After THAT, he then salted the entire porch and stairs and walkway to the car...... ALL of this so I won't fall tomorrow when we leave for work. I know this is small and may seem insignificant. But with all things I don't know, I DO KNOW this is true...my child(ren) will have the best daddy ever.
More Ornament Pictures.....
I do not know when our home study will be done....with this weather, our last visit, which is scheduled for Saturday, does not look good. I am prayful but nervous. And this is scary and frustrating because NOTHING else can move forward without it....our dossier, our grant applications, our potential referral....
I do not know when I will see the faces of my child(ren). I never thought I would ache to just see the mere face of the child I will parent. There were even times in the past when I was unsure if I would ever be a parent. Now, though, that it is an inevitability, I can't begin to tolerate the wait..... I mean, I am tolerating but it is so heart "aching"....
I do not know where the money will come from..... though after the miraculous ornament sale, I do know that the $$$ will come as it is supposed to.
I do not know where we will end up for my residency. We find out the third Thursday in March....I turn in my order in February and have to wait another month after that.... we will then move AGAIN in June where ever "that" is.... and have to have our home study amended.
Despite all of this "not knowing", I am trying to enjoyr, appreciate and love the ride.... Despite all fo this "not knowing", there is one thing I know without any doubt...... I know that my husband, JT, will be a fabulous father. I have always known this and never doubted it. Yet tonight he did something that was proof. Many of you may or may not know but Kentucky is getting ice and wet snow tonight. The roads were slick, mainly because here in the South, we don't handle winter weather well.... Basically, the entire state had school pre-emptively canceled today with the prediction of snow. Tonight, in the chilling temperatures and snow and ice, JT first came to my office and waited in the lobby for an hour while I saw patients so that he could drive me home (my car is not the best snow-mobile). After we got home, he insisted on sweeping our porch and the stairs leading the parking lot. After THAT, he then salted the entire porch and stairs and walkway to the car...... ALL of this so I won't fall tomorrow when we leave for work. I know this is small and may seem insignificant. But with all things I don't know, I DO KNOW this is true...my child(ren) will have the best daddy ever.
More Ornament Pictures.....
we have sold 10 or 12 more. I think now we are over 540. Can you believe it?
Bennett Kuma Gibson.....he just came home from Ethiopia on January 1, 2010.
Miller Washam......I helped deliver this little guy during my OBGYN rotation on May 15, 2009.
~Natalie
Natalie,
ReplyDeleteAw girl, I know how frustrating this process can get. I have a post very similar to this when we were working on all that paperwork. Keep your chin up, it will all work out. It's a rollercoaster and we are just on the uphill part of it right now, people tell me the rest of the ride is WAY worth the long climb to the top.
Take care,
Amy
Amy~ Thank you so much for the support...I hate when I feel down like yesterday. I had apologize to my best friend because I took it out on her as well as my blog. You are right, I must admit. It will all be worth it~
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